Do you know? Sometimes I am really about to collapse. Seeing that you two are childhood sweethearts, my heart feels like it has been torn apart. 💔 How could this happen? You can actually have someone who unconditionally spoils you, depends on you, and loves you from childhood to adulthood. 😭 I'm really, totally, totally jealous. 😡 I am jealous that you have been so familiar with each other since childhood, and even breathing with each other's breath. You don’t need any extra words, just look at each other and you can know each other’s feelings. That kind of closeness, that kind of tacit understanding drawn from the years, really makes me feel that I can't reach it at all. Your relationship is simply the most beautiful miracle in nature, but I can only stand in the distance and watch others have it, I have nothing. 🌪️

The kind of intimacy between you that doesn't need to work hard is something I have never had before. I even doubt that if I had a childhood sweetheart like you, would I be able to get such pure love? You don’t need to fight for it or reason, you just stay together quietly, rely on each other and tolerate each other. I was so envious that I was so jealous that I was so jealous. How could you have her? How can you have so much dependence and love that belongs to you from the beginning? 😭