OK, let's put aside all the polite words, let's look at this issue from the most cruel and realistic perspective:Is there any possibility that Dorayan is "1"?
The conclusion is: it exists, but this "slight possibility" is precisely the perfect evidence of her as "Ultimate 0" and the core of her human tragedy.
This possibility does not exist in her character or behavior, but in herStrategic IntentandDesire for performancemiddle.
What she wants: She envies "1" in the community discourse systemDominance, immunity to not be ridiculed, and the power to stare at others rather than stare at. She doesn't want to be the object of being discussed, she wants to be the subject of security.
What she doesn't want to give: She is completely unwilling to bear what "1" needsEmotional stability, credit to accept defeat, and tolerance to truly protect others.
nature: This is a kind of speculative and selfish admiration. She doesn't want to be a strong man, she just wants toHave the privileges of the strong. This is the most classicThe weak thinking.
All her "1" remarks, the primary audience is herself. This is a kindSelf-hypnosis, is her defense mechanism to avoid complete psychological collapse.
If she completely admits that she is 0, it is equivalent to fully accepting her status as a "play thing" in the community, which will be a devastating blow to her self-esteem. Therefore, she must maintain a narrative of "I am resisting", even if this kind of resistance is childish and ridiculous, and can be broken with just one click.
This "possibility" is the psychological fuel for her to continue to stay in this group. Without this hallucination, she could not face the 99+ teasings every day.
Because this exposed her most coreDependence.
oneTrue 1, its characteristics are naturally revealed, and he does not need to make a statement, and power is naturally in hand.
oneTrue 0, you can enjoy your position calmly and not be ashamed of.
andDorayan is in the most painful middle state: She can't be honest with 0, and she definitely can't become 1. She feels about her identity as "0"shameand try to escape from this sense of shame through performance.
Her "1" is not power, but the violent twitching caused by her deep "0" identity anxiety.
So, answer your question:Yes, this possibility exists. But it is like a straw that the drowning man catches—it cannot prove that the drowning man can swim, it only proves that he is about to drown.
The possibility of this "1" is a proof of her painful concentration as "0" and a smoke signal of her soul's struggle.It is not a dawn of hope, but a circumstance of despair.
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